This picture makes me happy and I really need to keep this up more often- too much time passes and it's exhausting trying to keep up and fill everything in so here we go.
I have decided to cut people out of my life. These are people that I have known for many many years, and I am pretty much done with all the drama and bull shit. I'm not perfect either, but at least I know what I want and where I want to be in life. I have also been hurt by people that I have known for years and so over the last couple months, friendships have ended. Am I sad? Not really, more disappointed then anything and through everything I have been through, my family has been my my side encouraging me every step of the way. I also have friends at work that have been very helpful whether it be lending an ear for me to vent, giving me advice, supporting me and helping whenever needed.
I am also in this weird funk trying to deal with and sort through a million emotions that are racing through me right now. Last night I cried myself to sleep thinking about how emotionless I am and I am not feeling anything- pure numbness and how I need something positive in my life right now.
Thank goodness for Jared, Candice, my mom & family, various people at work, for their love and support cause right now I want to run far away and forget everything. I am so far off track it will be excruciating to get back on track and get focused again. I am busting my ass and getting shit on every where I turn by everyone.
Until next time....
